Why a Life of Disappointment?

Recently, I had a conversation with a good friend about finding value? I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately and what it looks like in my life. Where do I find value? I think more than anything I feel valued when I’m accepted and loved. That’s probably true for most of us. It’s how we let that affect us that’s different from person to person.

For too long I’ve looked for those things in others. For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to be accepted: at school, by coaches, by teachers, and in my own family. I’ve looked for love from the people I care about most. I think the problem with this is that because I looked for value solely in others I was always disappointed. Not everyone is going to accept you and there will certainly be a lot that don’t love you. I was just looking in the wrong places. Now I find my value in God, who will accept me know matter my talents or the clothes I wear or my personality. I know that I can find love like no other in my Father who loves me unconditionally. Knowing this huge. I’ve learned to love myself, a creation of God, like I never have before. And I want to share that love with others even though I won’t always feel valued be them. And I can’t let memories from my past where I struggled the most with this affect who I am today and what I have in Christ.