Tuesday, January 1, 2008

I Don't Know

When life is filled with extreme highs and even more extreme lows what can you do? Ride it out I guess. At the end of the day what do you have? When things never seem to work out where do you turn with the pain? When you've hit the bottom where do you look for the slightest bit of hope? Where do you take your troubles? Your feelings?

I'm fortunate to have an incredible family but I don't always want to throw all my problems their way. I'm not one to burden people with my problems. So where does that leave me? I know exactly where it leaves me. Alone in this world but in the loving arms of my Father. At the end of the day what do I have? Hope in Christ. I can take whatever I have to him and I'll never be let down. What a truly incredible thing to be given this gift. To have him in my life. I know without him through all the difficult times, I would honestly be dead.

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

Father, thank you for everything you've done in my life. Thank you for an amazing family and my friends. Thank you for always being there. Through the years of depression even though I turned my back on you. Thank you for seeing me safely through that and through my surgery as well. I know it could have taken my life at anytime but you kept me around. Thank you so much for sending your son to die for my sins. I know I don't deserve it. I love you God. Give me the desire to always seek you. Give me strength and joy in the coming months as I struggle with things. Amen.

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